I don't know if I've ever struggled so much with finding my satisfaction in God. And not only that, but believing I am complete in Christ. I. Am. Complete. In. Christ. Which means, I don't need anything else. I don't need popularity, I don't need talents, I don't need the newest coat or the warmest pair of shoes. I don't need friends. Yes, God has designed the body of Christ with friends to encourage and uplift one another, but when those become more important then my walk with Christ, they seem to fall apart. Or at least things seem to not go how I want or expect them to go. Which means this: I don't need any of it. I don't. I need Christ.
Everything around me screams "pour yourself into me!" or "make me #1!" or "You need this!" All of it is empty. It's deceitful. "Beware lest anyone spoil you through philosophy and vain deceit" Col 2. It doesn't matter that all my friends seem to have other friends or don't have time for me. It doesn't matter that everyone has a boyfriend and all they want to do is hook me up with one, also. None of that matters. Because it is empty. Compared to being complete in Christ it is absolutely empty. "Ye are complete in Him." Col 2.
And so that's where I stand. I quote this verse all day. I wake up and live life because CHrist completes me. I don't live for anyone else. I'm ok sitting in my room occasionally by myself knowing my friends are out without me, because my life doesn't revolve around them. It revolves around Christ. All these things that people are throwing in my face are worthless "compared with the glory that will be revealed in us." Roms 8:18
Jesus, You complete me. Help me to live in light of that awesome truth.
